Good morning sweetie,
I miss you so very much. Your talking about the firewalk and that you have to do it and not wait and let the moment pass was very poignant. I feel as though I have spent all year looking back at what I could have done rather than looking ahead at what I can change. The only thing that I can change is the future, not the past. I think that you have noticed a change in me the last couple of days after I realized this. I feel far more energized and far more committed to change than I ever have.
I feel as though I have been in a fog for so long. I love you so very much Corrine and I need to know how you feel. Is there any hope of getting back that wonderful fire that was our love? Have I killed it? You have been so distant in the last few months and it is killing me, but I can understand your reluctance to continue as we were. I have been such an idiot. You were so right all along. I MUST listen to my heart and not the voices in my head. Fear has ruled my life for long enough. I must break free from this or I will certainly drown and never get out of it's control.
I so wanted to say this to you in
person this morning but once again my parasite is having a field day inside my
I have never been happier than when we were together, dancing to our song. The emotion so thick that it was streaming down our faces. I do love you so very much Corrine, I hope that I'm not too late.
I love you, Happy Valentines Day!